Sunday, September 27, 2009

没有你的第九十七天。。。

wow, its like almost a 100 days since you left. argh, idk why it was like a few days ago i started crying cos i just thought of you. yeah, just like that. how stupid of me to cry. i told myself many times that i shouldnt cry but i just could not do it. sorry, how useless can i get. crying over everything. argh, i suck like totally. i am so totally useless. i just cant protect you. ARGH.



Sunday, September 13, 2009

没有你的第八十三天。。。

you know, eoys are like coming. and then its like theres no one for me to stare at when i am bored. cos youre gone. and i totally hate eoys. and how i wish you were there with me and then is like argh. idk what to say. i admit that i am getting used to life without you. but still yeah, i cant like ever forget you. but idk why, somehow i am getting used to that empty space there. but still, i hope you come back soon. really really soon. or maybe come back now. yeah, right now. i wish you could appear before my eyes.



Monday, August 31, 2009

没有你的第七十天。。。

wow, 70 days without you. and then today when i went out with my mama i realised that i saw alot of tortoise-related stuff in the scrapbook shop. argh, and then yeah. recently, i also watched this hk show. and then is abt pets and then i started crying and then i started thinking abt you. idk why, somehow but idk how you keep appearing. and what i hate is that i dream of you. i dont want to be sad cos of you. i want to stay happy and let you noe that. but apparently, when i think of you, i somehow cant do that. argh. save me.



Tuesday, August 25, 2009

没有你的第六十四天。。。

when i did chensi's baby sister's card, i foung many many stuff then i bought just for you. i wanted to make a scrapbook using your photos and i realised that i took so little photos of you. i regret it. and a lot. i wanted to keep little memories of you but i cant. what a big failure i am. even till today, i still miss you alot. only that i have jsut got over the fact that you are gone. and like forever? why is it so that you have to be gone before i realised how much i treasured you? why why why? argh, suan le. all i know that is i can never ever see you again. never.



Sunday, August 16, 2009

没有你的第五十五天。。。

sometimes, i realised that maybe its all my fault. maybe its all fault that you had to leave. maybe its all my fault. yeah, all my fault. idk why, but i have this strong feeling that you had to go cos my parents think that i did not take care of you well enough? idk idk idk. argh, i suck.

okok, i promised no to be emo. so cheer up! yay(:



Friday, August 14, 2009

没有你的第五十三天。。。

i am so sorry that i didnt blog for like ages. and maybe you arent around anymore, i have one less companion to talk to. now, i feel like i talk to you through the blog. omg, i so stupid. how could you even hear me. today, got back 2 papers, geog and science. and then i lost both to who?
TAY KAI XIAN. of all people. somemore the geog test only by half mark larh. i hope mrs chin rounds it up. hahas, flat hope. idk why when i think of you nowadays. i dont feel that sad anymore. instead, i feel kind of, happy? idk. the feeling quite weird also. cos i also feel sad sometimes. i wonder if there is any word that could describe this weird feeling. and then i hope that one day, i can visit you. but yeah, obvioulsy not when that person is my father's client. wtheck. and tay kaixian, you watch out. one day. you wait and see. okay, nvm. pretended i said nth. i forever wont win him larh. pro like idk what. stupid.



Wednesday, August 5, 2009

没有你的第四十四天。。。

wow. i cant believe this.44 days. i survived 44 days without you. i realise that life without you sucks a whole lot. when you were around, i never thought of losing you. i thought, you would stay with me forever. your sudden departure hurts me. and alot. i hate it. i want you to come back. but i noe. that will never ever happen. never.

i often think, if you suddenly had to come back to live with me. would you want to? would you even remember me? i think you wouldnt. and i am sorry, cos i am the worst owner ever. maybe, i dont even deserve such a nice pet like you. cos i am such a lousy owner. ahda, i am so sorry.