Monday, July 27, 2009

没有你的第三十五天。。。

sorry that i havent been posting very often. but blogger is officially nuts. i cldnt post in the past few days. stupid blogger. anw, on sun, my parents went to ikea. and what did they buy? plants. what for? they wanted to cover up that empty space of yours. ever since you left, the balcony has been so empty. everytime i look out, all i see is a big big empty space. and i hate it. its so ugly. and my parents went to buy plants to put there. i understand their kind intentions but in fact, it doesnt make a difference. cos you arent there. not anymore. and never, i suppose.

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Friday, July 17, 2009

没有你的第二十五天。。。

i realise that i dont blog abt you that often anymore. maybe, i am getting used to life without you. but then today, during science class, idk why. but somehow, i just thought of you. and then i started drawing retarded tortoises. hahas, maybe i will nvr be able to let go of you? idk. maybe i wont be sad over the loss one day but i will never be able to forget you...



Wednesday, July 15, 2009

没有你的第二十三天。。。

today, i went home and then i suddenly saw the box of food for you there. and then i suddenly remembered that you left me already. and then, today i told myself. when i grew up, i would buy a big house for my family to stay. if i can nvr find you again, then i would keep other terrapins as a form of repayment to you. i seriously wonder how are you doing now. hope you are fine with your new home. i wonder if you ever knew that you had an old home. hahas, maybe not even though you lived here for 5 years. 5 years. and then you left me. life can be so umm, surprising? idk what to say. speechless



Wednesday, July 8, 2009

没有你的第十六天。。。

hello. today is my birthday. is supposedly a very happy day. but then again, sth was missing and that was you. i never ever thought of spending my birthday without you. every year, you would be there. and on my birthday, you also had a present. hahas, which was me feeding you lots and lots of food. hahahas, how i wish i could do that to you this year. but it didnt happen. it didnt. i wonder why i was so stupid. i feel like an idiot. is like i dont even have the ability to protect you. i just let you leave me. just like that. you were gone. i wonder why this ever had to happen. i promise, if i ever have a big house. even if i cant find you back. i will have other of your frens living happily in my house. you have my promise!



Tuesday, July 7, 2009

没有你的第十五天。。。

hello. tmr is my birthday. will there be a big surprise for me? like umm, bringing you back to my house? hahas, impossible man. what crap am i talking abt. haiz. today, i looked at belle's dp. and then, i realise that you were not with me. i wonder if you ever had any idea how much i missed you. haiz, i shant make this post too emo. but i am so sorry, i just ccant help it. hope you are getting along fine there.



Saturday, July 4, 2009

没有你的第十二天。。。

hello. this few days, the blog has been very dead. and i am so sorry. but i sometimes dont have the courage to blog. i dont dare. i dont want to think of you. but i just cant help it. i realise that in life, parting is very hard. i mean you will feel pain when you part, wont you? maybe even if you part with a non living thing. you might even feel the same. i am so sorry, i told myself not to think of you but i just cant stop. i cant. i realise, i cant control. it is just the emotions. they flow out on their own. unstoppable. uncontrollable. sorry.